So, last night, the man and I went to the pub as he usually plays darts with his friends on a thursday. Of course, my luck, the ex was in with the pool team and therefore it was very awkward! Its a small pub so even when you don't sit together, it can be too close for comfort plus the pool table is very near the dart board. It made me realise though, being sat a foot from my man and my ex man, I loved him, I really did and although we had good times I was mostly unhappy after moving in with him, knowing we didn't want the same things. Now, I do get mad or upset, but I'm still happy so much, totally the opposite. I still feel so guilty for the hurt I caused but I can't live my life for another.
The man passed a job interview he had the other day and has training days on monday! So proud!!!
Lola
Friday 18 September 2009
Thursday 17 September 2009
Wake-up call
I very nearly had a breakdown this week. It may be something to do with the fact I returned to uni 3 days ago and now have 3 x 3000 word assignments, plus homework and reading with another assignment on the way tomorrow. This cannot be good! I actually have to pull my finger out this year and do some work. I also definately have to learn anatomy and physiology though. I thought my stomach was where my intestines are....I probably wouldn't want myself looking after my own children as a nurse! So that's this weekends research!
Not much else has been happening this week though I am going for lunch with my 2 closest friends on monday, at pizza hut with a spell of starbucks, borders books and paperchase! Good times. I may actually enjoy this year!
Met my friend Kirsty the other day for a 'drink'. Needless to say I was incredibly hungover the next day because with Kirsty, one drink is never enough lol. So much for my diet...that went out the window when I hurt myself doing exercise. I've re-started healthy eating but am scared to weigh myself for a few days!
Lola
Sunday 13 September 2009
Moving up the class system
So, sexy bum and I have just spent a weekend at his parents caravan at the golf club with them. First night, we spent at the quiz night in the club house which was so fun even though we came 2nd last...next time baby! We all ended up incredibly drunk. They decided to play golf the next day so I stayed out in the sun all day writing letters and listening to my Ipod. We were all a bit knackered last night so we stayed in with beer, played monopoly and had a laugh. I could get used to this middle class malarkey!
Back to school tomorrow. Only 2 years of uni left, dun dun dun! Its a bit kerazy how quick it's flying by. I actually have to work now too because it contributes to my final mark! ugh!
Found my old poetry and song book yesterday...some of it is pretty gay but here's one I quite like:
Goodbye, Childhood
Some think it's a goodbye
To things they once believed,
But it's about new ideas
And how they are perceived.
It's hard to let go
At first, you feel the pain
When you find a bit of wisdom,
You learn you have to lose to gain.
And so what if you're different?
And who cares about mistakes?
Just remember life is compromise,
Don't forget to give as well as take.
Give in to the inevitable,
Just walk straight through the door.
Things you've done forever
Will seem much newer than before.
At seventeen, it hits you
Eighteen, childhood disappeared.
It creeps up really quickly
Everything you feared.
But look at the world through new eyes,
Each and every day
Because once you take the world for granted
You're throwing life away
Lola x
Back to school tomorrow. Only 2 years of uni left, dun dun dun! Its a bit kerazy how quick it's flying by. I actually have to work now too because it contributes to my final mark! ugh!
Found my old poetry and song book yesterday...some of it is pretty gay but here's one I quite like:
Goodbye, Childhood
Some think it's a goodbye
To things they once believed,
But it's about new ideas
And how they are perceived.
It's hard to let go
At first, you feel the pain
When you find a bit of wisdom,
You learn you have to lose to gain.
And so what if you're different?
And who cares about mistakes?
Just remember life is compromise,
Don't forget to give as well as take.
Give in to the inevitable,
Just walk straight through the door.
Things you've done forever
Will seem much newer than before.
At seventeen, it hits you
Eighteen, childhood disappeared.
It creeps up really quickly
Everything you feared.
But look at the world through new eyes,
Each and every day
Because once you take the world for granted
You're throwing life away
Lola x
Thursday 10 September 2009
Back to school (almost!)
Thank God uni starts again on monday...I have been going mad! I actually printed off and colour coded my timetables, that is just how bored you can become!
We went to a wedding Friday just gone, the man and I. Well he went to the wedding and I went to the reception as we'd only been seeing each other for a week when he was invited and such. It was actually really good but you know, I spent all day trying to look hot, got there and spent the night being respectable and cautious with my vodka, only for my gorgeous man to try break dancing and chin himself, haha. I danced all night which I haven't done for long enough I have to say. Good times.
Currently, my parents are doing my head in, especially the mother. She slags people off for not listening then does the same. Then, this week, we've had some of her furniture in our house but since we're moving I asked what she wanted us to do with it as we had a week to be out. She said she would get back to me. Did she? Of course not, in the end I had the ring her and she sounded surprised to hear from me. For God's sake, what was she going to do, ring me the night before?! ARGH!
Good news though, I am down to my lowest BMI and weight for a long time. My BMI is now 24.24 and I started at 25.05. I seem to put on then lose but everytime I put a bit on, the number is getting less. I have however bust my knee on Wii active which I took as a sign from God to go to ASDA and buy dairylea dunkers, pepsi and oreos in copious 'on offer' amounts. Of course, I'm now sitting staring at them, putting weight on with only that action lol.
I got 6 letters from penpals in 2 days. I have become a nerd. To defeat this, I have decided to try out for cheerleading (to look like a twat) and netball (to look like a giant muscly lesbian). I am also going to definately join the music theatre society (to look like a band freak or drama gay). My life is so fulfilling haha. No offense to gays or lesbians by the way-I fully confess that, despite being straight, one day my time will come to sleep with Kylie Minogue and when it does, I shall be leaving on the other bus for homo-ville.
Oh yeah, and I have brown hair with blonde roots....obviously the Sugababes song 'sexy' is about me haha. I will fix that little problemmo tonight!
Lola x
We went to a wedding Friday just gone, the man and I. Well he went to the wedding and I went to the reception as we'd only been seeing each other for a week when he was invited and such. It was actually really good but you know, I spent all day trying to look hot, got there and spent the night being respectable and cautious with my vodka, only for my gorgeous man to try break dancing and chin himself, haha. I danced all night which I haven't done for long enough I have to say. Good times.
Currently, my parents are doing my head in, especially the mother. She slags people off for not listening then does the same. Then, this week, we've had some of her furniture in our house but since we're moving I asked what she wanted us to do with it as we had a week to be out. She said she would get back to me. Did she? Of course not, in the end I had the ring her and she sounded surprised to hear from me. For God's sake, what was she going to do, ring me the night before?! ARGH!
Good news though, I am down to my lowest BMI and weight for a long time. My BMI is now 24.24 and I started at 25.05. I seem to put on then lose but everytime I put a bit on, the number is getting less. I have however bust my knee on Wii active which I took as a sign from God to go to ASDA and buy dairylea dunkers, pepsi and oreos in copious 'on offer' amounts. Of course, I'm now sitting staring at them, putting weight on with only that action lol.
I got 6 letters from penpals in 2 days. I have become a nerd. To defeat this, I have decided to try out for cheerleading (to look like a twat) and netball (to look like a giant muscly lesbian). I am also going to definately join the music theatre society (to look like a band freak or drama gay). My life is so fulfilling haha. No offense to gays or lesbians by the way-I fully confess that, despite being straight, one day my time will come to sleep with Kylie Minogue and when it does, I shall be leaving on the other bus for homo-ville.
Oh yeah, and I have brown hair with blonde roots....obviously the Sugababes song 'sexy' is about me haha. I will fix that little problemmo tonight!
Lola x
Tuesday 1 September 2009
Falling in love again
Well, my lovely and I nearly split up this week. It was fairly awful actually. He decided it wasn't working because we were arguing all the time and he was too old for me. Like age has anything to do with it. Anyway, we talked it out for ages and got sorted.
Since then, it's been amazing, it's like we've cleared the air and are just totally loved up since. I feel like a weight has been lifted. Now I just have to lose some weight so I can buy loads of sexy lingerie for him!
We're planning a bit of a building project-his grandad was ringing the council today so I hope he's remembered!
Lola
Since then, it's been amazing, it's like we've cleared the air and are just totally loved up since. I feel like a weight has been lifted. Now I just have to lose some weight so I can buy loads of sexy lingerie for him!
We're planning a bit of a building project-his grandad was ringing the council today so I hope he's remembered!
Lola
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